Boys.

   I know, the one thing us girls lovvvve to talk about. But I wanted to focus on something a little different. My whole life I have been taller than most boys my age until I got to college. Still, even in college, I'm probably taller than 50% of the young men here. This has made dating a difficult challenge as I would like to potentially marry someone taller than me. For my own self conscious reasons, I want to marry someone my height or taller.

   So what? What's the blog post for? Well despite the height challenge, it's been hard finding boys to date. I feel like a boys first impression of me is: intimidating. So, of course, they don't dare go for me. I am loud, and bigger than most girls, but I promise I don't bite. I've run into a lot of guys that are my "type" (I know it's horrible to have a type) but instantly I'm a "bro" to them and I'm friendzoned. I like to play sports and be outside a lot, so you think I'd get a lot of dates? Wrong. I am constantly searching for why I've never been the "hot girl" boys are always digging. Is it my breath? Is it the height? The sarcasm? The loudness? My hair? What?!
 
  I don't drown my face in make up, and nor will I ever. That's not me. I'm tired of boys expecting me to always look better than I should, when in fact, I think I look better with less make up. I'm tired of explaining that I don't have my ears pierced and that I never will because jewelry has never been my thing. The less I have to do to get ready the better my day goes. I'm tired of being asked, "is it hard to date being 6 ft tall?" as if it's not already obvious enough.

  Whenever I get introduced to other people (usually by boys) they introduce me as "This is Annie, she's super cool". Why am I super cool? Why aren't you dating me then? I've tried so hard to figure out this whole dating thing, but I'm out of luck. Keep in mind, these things were happening long before I announced I was serving a mission. Once I got my mission call I was pronounced dead in the dating world.

   Something I have noticed though is people need to get to know me. Yes, my first encounter with you I will probably be dead silent and super awkward. I have a couple guy friends from back home that would do anything for me. But I asked myself, why are my guy friends treating me so much better than boys in Provo? It's because they know me. If my dating experience was based off of all my first dates I'll probably be single forever. When a boy actually takes the time to get to know, rather than taking me on a first date and then being done, then I think I'll have "advanced" in the dating world.

   This blog post is all over the place and kind of me just rambling, but it's how I have felt in the past with dating. I'm not saying it's any boys fault that I'm not getting asked out on dates, this has just been my past experience with dating. xoxoxo